I don’t watch horror films because my mind is an immensely crazy place. After the movie is over and everyone has moved on, I still retain some scenes in my head. I begin to hear and see things. And so, because I don’t want the curtain to become a demon at night, I steer clear of horror films and anything demonology related. I don’t read about it, I don’t talk about it and the world has been at peace.
I became Christian and now, my peace is frayed at the edges. Some people just wont let me be. They insist I have to involve myself. I have to cast and bind, I have to wrestle against flesh and blood. But jeez, I didn’t skip horror films for spiritual warfare. Demons? Devils? Spirits? Count me out. Possessions? Deliverances? Cleansings? Count me out. Once it’s not straight forward, count me out!
See, I don’t just want to disturb any spirit. Let everybody stay in their zone. There are people whose calling this is but it is not mine. Navigating my life as it is is already mysterious and hard enough. I already have too many questions. I don’t want to add to that. I don’t want a dramatic “Christian” life. I don’t want to see angels and globes of fire. I just want to go to heaven. God, just do your thing. Slay the demon but don’t show me how you’re slaying him. I don’t want to see.
So, dear God, I promise, I will be a good daughter. I will pray. I will ask you to bless me and give me plenty money, money that does not have focus. I will workout. I will not drink coke again. I will pray for missionaries. I will give to the poor. I will love my neighbours. I will do my two cents in this world. Just allow me skip this warfare stuff. Please.